Restless Soul

Having borderlines feels like a dark eternal place.

Never knowing how to feel in every situation. It’s full of uncertainty, it’s difficult to figure out what the next step will be. It feels line always hanging.

You look at the mirror and starts questioning yourself. You starve, exhaust your bodies yet at the end of the day you feel like nothing changes because you lack confidence. Feeling ashamed of your body as gravity pulls your self-esteem down

As thoughts rumble in your mind, you want to scream and cry, but you can’t. Your throat is being locked by a vice grip as anger and self-hate piles up heavy as stones. Feeling helpless and no one can undestand. An emotional breakdown occurs that feels like the end of the world.

Tired and uninspired as you want these things to stop. The chaotic battle between you and yourself is out of control. This time, you need someone to listen and understand. yet you hesitate because of the fear of being judged. You end up stagnant and no progress.

Emotional vulnerability and needing to seek help are often concealed

These are inevitable emotional struggles, that we are allowed to express regardless of our gender. We are humans, what you feel is valid.

I always wanted to express these emotions inside me then I started to look for someone who can portray and execute this concept. I found Richard who is in film production. He also have worked with some well known films. Richard was a good canditate, he told me that he's used to being insecure about his body, his social anxiety, self-hate and struggles in his life.